hello again

i have had a hard time lately.i am at the library, where i am doing research for my book. but it all so depressing. no one said that focusing my career based on helping teen parents, would be easy. everything i read is negative. i do understand where these people are coming from, don't get me wrong. i do agree with much of it. but the only time girls are mentioned in a positive light are when they are talking about adoption. which is a valid option. altough, in my research i have found that it is the choice, that is not used as often. i do feel like giving your baby away, is very loving and selfless. but, girls who choose to keep their babies are regaurded as being selfish. how is devoting the rest of your life, in the most hard working job you will ever have, being selfish. i find that to be selfless. i have given my everything to my son, by my choice. i would never regret it.i feel i have given my son the best of me. to that i say i have never been selfish, from that stand pont, is wrong . i only want to for the judgement to end and people to respect young parents. it may not be the best situation for them, but it is theirs non the less. i feel emotionaly robbed. i am have recently been given the news that i may have problems concieving. eveytime i share my dread that i may have problems, i am faced with poeple saying that i have one, i should be happy. i feel that they are implying that i am not fufilled by my life, my son. i love him more than anything. i just feel i have every right to want another. i am going to be 23 this month. i am still young. but who knows how much time i have left for that. when will the judgement end. oops, have to pick up my son, he is in preschool now. i will post again soon. i am busy writing a proposal for a magazine. wish me luck.