what i am up to

hello all, i have sent out this address to a bunch of people i know. so to all the people that have read this in support of me, thank you. in my last blog i was upset because of some test results. but just to get it out there I am being positive. that is my mato after all. i am sending my finished proposal into the magazine this week. I am so nervous. once i have the okay , i will let you know which magazine it is in, so you can read it. the hardest part in all of this is the search for an agent. it takes so much work, because there is so many manuscript they receive it can take months for them to read it. like with the magazine they said it could take as long as 6 months to actually be published because so much work goes into editing and publishing. i have to admit that i have a lot of support from my family. otherwise i would not have the strength to do this. it was actually one person who really gave me that push. her name is Elizabeth Gilbert. so if i can take this moment to officially thank you Mrs. Gilbert from the bottom of my heart thank you. if it had not have been that package she sent me i would never gotten to the stage i am in now. well , now that i have vented all of that i will get to the actual focus of my blog. All the research i am doing for this book has been hard to hear. it is one controversial subject, that everyone is uncomfortable talking about. People truly feel that if you say you want to help young parents , you are condoning their mistakes. i have said before i will say it again. babies are not mistakes. the world needs to stop think of these babies in such a derogatory way. and realize that yes it was not the most ideal situation to raise a baby in. but we need to give these young people the tools so that they can become the best parents that they can be. why is that so hard for people to do. i know a lot of young parents and they are wonderful at what they do . they support their family. they love their babies and it shows. i just wish people saw that part. you hear on the news these horrible things that teens have done to a fetus or young child. and i feel that if we viewed them differently, these tragedies would not occur. well that is the basis of most of my writing. i never would have thought , that this is what i would be doing for a career. lobbying to help emotionally support teenagers. and help people to view them differently. my son's fifth birthday is coming up and it marks such a milestone. i cannot believe how much time has gone by. i look at him and see innocence and purity and it just makes my heart melt. the way a mother loves her child is a feeling that nothing can compare to. young fathers need to also stand up . they have rights to. so much of what i researched is not only morbid but it is aimed solely at teen mothers. but maybe if the men were approached differently, the statistic of single moms would not be so true. in a lot of cases the guy leaves. but i have also seen them stay. in fact in the 'one on one' interviews i have held, their boyfriends were still there. but in the 'paper research' it claims that it is rare for that to occur. i wonder whats more true. but maybe it depends on the area where it happens. or the religion or even the race. i will find out though. i am off the do more research, and my son is getting a cough so i need to go tend to him. thank you to all my knew followers.