stressed

i know i am supposed to have this blog to help others. so i apologize for my aproaching rampage=o). see the thing is , is that you can learn from others touble so maybe, in this case it might. or i could be sitting her venting to a virtual diary. here we go. we have had this party planned for months poeple are coming from out of town. they took off work for it. and now, its chaos. it' s beautiful outside. but according to the news a storm is coming in saturday night. guess which day is his party. it ha never rained on his birthday beforte. why now? why this. oh so important party. people , family will be meeting for the first time. it' special , its important. so even tough we had already bought the park permit, god willing it wont rain, but we have to have a back up. assuming we would do it at my house like last year. only it's going to be more people. so my mom and i have not been getting along too well. and she proclaimed last night that i could not hold it at the house. just out of spite. the only place that will do it on a days notice. is a place out of town. with depoist will amount to a heaping 700 dollars. price is 55 an hour, and thats crazy. so right now i am having a panic attack. all eyes are on me. i cant drop the ball. i feel exhusted but i want to shout. god, please dont let it rain.