wiped out

my gosh, i feel like i am going mad. i have so much to do before my sons fifth birthday party. it's quite exhusrting. i dropped him off at scholl at 12:30. and i havent taken a moment to breath. i have been to every party store with in the reach. even one beyond my city. the toy store. where i spent more for his bike then i thought i would. i have about ten minutes to post this. i swear, but iam happy i get this 10 minutes to post. i didnt think i would be able to do it for another week. and i now i must go to the grocerie store before i ger him. i do this errands alone for two reasons. 1- i dont want him to sneek anything that may be a surprise. 2- honestly i think my head would be spinning if i werent alone. i csn run in snd out, and there is no one there dragging thier feet. it may sound mean, but truly it is not. it just a well known fact that if you have to do errands with your kids it will take longer. i thought it would get better as he got older. no baby seats, binkys and strollers. but honestly, i think it gets worse. he still ants to be carried, and he screams and whines for everything he sees. he lost a tooth two days ago. i was so excited. you see he lost one bottom one in january, but the silly guy ate it, and we never did find it. i was so pettialy sad. but then the other one got lose. and for the past two weeks he would barley eat. claiming that the loose tooth was bothersome. he requested orajel t every meal. then i just poked it and it feel out. he saw the blood and went nuts. screaming that i had some how hurthim, bu ripping an 'unready to go' tooth. but then when he saw it he was happy and he wasnt truly in pain, the blood just scared him. i had the honor for the first time every to be the tooth fairy. i painted a fairy and stars on an enelope and placed two two dollar bills and a one inside. represnting his five years of age, that is approaching. my heart smiled in the morning when he found it. "SHE CAME , THE TOOTH FAIRY CAME!" he requested i open it( he didnt ant to hurt the envelope). he was so excited. he carried it around yesterday insisiting on paying for things. so cute! i really didnt want to see him spend it. but he was so proud. he felt very grown up. he went to school and shared it with everyone. it may seem silly, but it was one of the best things that i have shared with him. i felt honord to feel that warm mommy feeling. cant wait to feel it again on his birthday, and again on his party. i am sad and happy that he will be five. i tear up. but i know that he is still my baby.