A quick rant about writing

I just sent in my essay to a writing contest. I mailed it yesterday, but it is haunting me. I wonder if it is something every writer goes through. i hear a word a thought or a sentence, I think 'i should of used that! or realize a grammatical error. It's giving me like O.C.D.. this career is more difficult than i thought. people are also insinuating that because it is not a 9-5 that i am not working! it's even harder to do it at home. and lastly it is hard as an artist to stay motivated. most days i don't have the energy. I have to be in the mood( like other stuff.lol) to get the best result. people say that once your turn passion into a career it's no longer gratifying. I just feel like a big ball of frustration. i feel that people do not respect this career. i just wish that like i could switch in on and off, so that I could work more. gotta get used to it. when it comes to publishing, you have deadlines. however i actually procrastinate a lot and always wait till the last minute. and it makes me floor it. but that's not a good way of finishing a masterpiece. which is the only thing i find would with life, if your going to do it. do it right. i have learned a lot through my writers group. they are all published and give great advice. I have meet inspiring and fascinating people. I know I write well, and love it. but it is sure one hard career path. who knew creativity had a deadline.